The urn we found is an Egyptian goddess that looks like a cat. Bastet, goddess of (amongst many other things) joy. Fitting, I do believe.
The urn
I hadn't cried in several days, but did so last night when we brought his ashes home. I put them in his urn, and I just carried it around for a little while. I don't know why, but it was so hard to put that urn down. So, I just carried it over to the door and we stood and watched the snow. It was rather odd, but I think that was what I had to do so say goodbye this one last time. I talked to him for a little while and told him the story about when he was just a kitten and went flying out our front door and sunk right up over his head in the snow. That broke him of running outside for about 10 years. I know he wasn't there, couldn't hear it and wouldn't have understood it if he did hear it, but it felt good to tell him a little story about a time that made me smile.
Finally, I put him down on the library table that is under our TV. My original plan was to put him in the curio cabinet. But, for right now, I need to see the small reminder of him. So, in the living room he remains.
Rest in Peace, Mittens.
April 1996-December 21, 2010
What our head knows and what our heart feels are often at odds. It doesn't matter that he heard. It soothed your pain, and that's the important part.
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